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Fear #trust30

These are the voices which we hear in solitude, but they grow faint and inaudible as we enter into the world. Society everywhere is in conspiracy against the manhood of every one of its members.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

So what if fear is “False Evidence Appearing Real”
It’s real enough to me
It’s the fear of being incompetent that scares me the most

To create a new normal I must learn a new way of being
which means doing what I’ve dreamed of doing
but have not yet done

My worth to others
and especially my worth to me
is based on what I’ve done in the past

But if I try something new,
my fear is
of not measuring up to the expectations of others
and even more terrifying
is facing the reality that what I’m delivering
does not measure up to the magnificence of what I imagined

Will I let them down?
Will I let ME down?

When I look back ten years from now
I will probably smile at how naive I was
how I was afraid of giving life to my vision
for fear of not being worthy of being the one to make it happen

It is very tempting to cling to the known
because, like it or not, at least it is known

The choice I have before me is to be comfortable in my competence
because it justifies being the person I am now
or to celebrate my incompetence
because it frees me to invent the glorious person I am meant to be.

For more information

This post is part of a series inspired by The Domino Project’s #Trust30 Writing Challenge. Each day during the month of June 2011, we receive a thought from Ralph Waldo Emerson’s essay “Self-Reliance”, to use as a writing prompt. For more information about the #Trust30 Writing Challenge, see today’s prompt:
http://ralphwaldoemerson.me/lachlan-cotter

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